Dark times seem to lie ahead.
After feeling that my thoughts were to scrambled to put down, i seem to have started to clear my head a little....

I am in a very dangerous situation with someone i care too much for...he is one of my best friends, and i dont know what to do about the way i feel...he accepts me for who i am but would he ever see me in that way? I highly doubt it.

I also have to contend with wedding plans in our house, which drives me further to distraction. the mothership has told me to invite said friend....i dunno
i feel that i cannot win whatever i try

emotions are too difficult to deal with